UNCONTROLLABLE BODY

I HAVE BEEN SKIING FOR TWO SEASONS.  I REALLY ENJOY SKIING.  I AM GREAT AT BALANCING MY BODY.  I CAN FEEL EVERY PART OF MY BODY.  IT IS SO INTERESTING TO BE ABLE TO FEEL EVERY BODY PART.  I CAN THEN TELL MY BODY PART WHAT TO DO.  THE ONLY THING IS MY BODY DOESN'T LISTEN TO ME MOST OF THE TIME.  IT IS SO EXTREMELY FRUSTRATING TO LIVE WITH THIS OUT OF CONTROL BODY.  I HATE THAT I HAVE NO CONTROL OVER MY BODY.  I AM PERCEIVED TO NOT BE INTELLIGENT BY MOST PEOPLE BECAUSE I FLAP, MAKE VOCAL NOISES, MAKE LITTLE EYE CONTACT, I DON'T SPEAK WITH MY MOUTH OR LAUGH AT THE RIGHT TIME.  THIS MEANS THAT I HAVE A BRAIN AND BODY DISCONNECT.  IT IS EASIER TO UNDERSTAND NOW THAT I RPM TO EXPRESS MYSELF.  I CAN TALK ABOUT THINGS RELATED TO AUTISM AND I CAN TEACH PEOPLE ABOUT THE REAL AUTISM.  AUTISTICS HAVE THINKING MINDS JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE.  I AM HUMAN TOO.  I JUST CAN'T TALK WITH MY MOUTH.