I HAVE BEEN WORKING WITH A PERSONAL TRAINER NAMED RYAN FOR ALMOST SIX MONTHS. I HAVE BEEN GOING IN ONCE A WEEK FOR ONE HOUR SESSIONS. I HAVE SEEN INCREDIBLE CHANGES IN MY BODY. I AM HAPPY TO REPORT THAT I HAVE MORE BODY CONTROL AND MORE BODY AWARENESS. I CAN FINALLY FEEL WHERE MY BODY IS. CAN YOU IMAGINE NOT FEELING WHERE YOUR BODY IS AT ALL TIMES, THAT YOU ARE FLOATING ALL THE TIME. THAT IS HOW I FELT WHEN I WAS NOT TETHERED TO MY SERVICE DOG GUSTO. MOVING MY LEGS FELT IMPOSSIBLE AT TIMES. I FELT LIKE I COULDN'T GET TO WHERE I WANTED TO GO. IT IS SO FRUSTRATING. I WOULD GRAB THINGS THAT I WASN'T SUPPOSE TO GRAB BUT MY HANDS WOULD STILL GRAB THOSE THINGS. MAKING PURPOSEFUL MOVEMENTS WAS EXTREMELY DIFFICULT. THIS WAS SO FRUSTRATING. HAVING OUTBURSTS WERE THE WORSE. I WOULD BE SCREAMING AT MYSELF TO STOP BUT THIS OUT OF CONTROL BODY HAD OTHER PLANS. I WOULD FEEL ASHAMED OF MYSELF AFTERWARDS. SUCH AWFUL FEELINGS AFTER A MELTDOWN OR OUTBURST.
I AM HAPPY I DON'T HAVE THOSE FEELINGS HARDLY ANYMORE. I FEEL EMPOWERED WITH MY NOW CONTROLLED BODY. I CAN NOW HELP MY MOM WITH CHORES. WHAT AN AMAZING FEELING TO BE ABLE TO HELP OUT AROUND THE HOUSE AND IN STORES.
I THINK ALL AUTISTICS SHOULD WORK OUT AND FIND THEIR BODIES. I HAVE TO SAY THANK YOU TO MY TRAINER RYAN FOR THE AWESOME WEEKLY WORKOUTS AND THE AWESOME MUSIC TO WORKOUT TO.
BRAYDEN AND HIS TRAINER RYAN
